Resolutions for the rest of 2013


Last night I couldn’t sleep until 2am, which meant that I spent the day feeling like I had a head full of sand, incapable of concentrating for long on any complex tasks, baffled and confused by the world around me. My wife and child fetched me away from the office at six, and took me to a restaurant to eat pizza, in the hope this would be an antidote to fatigue. Before that happened, I sat at my desk, dumbly fumbling at my computer, wondering why I wasn’t achieving more. There’s less than three months left until the year is over, and those days will start to fly past if you don’t make an effort to get in control of them.

I’m putting on weight. The life of a parent is a sedentary one, at least until they start running around and you have to chase after them. Late nights and early starts mean I’ve drastically reduced my training volume. Well, "reduced" suggests I’ve been actively choosing to run shorter distances, instead of hardly going out running at all. I want to get back up to 50 kilometers a week by the end of the year.

Tonight, after falling asleep at seven p.m. and being woken an hour later to be told to wipe the drool from my beard and get some exercise, I went for a run. The air was disgustingly hot and humid; it felt like running while wearing an old blanket. I managed to piece together six kilometers, then ground to a halt. Still, it was the first time today I’d felt awake, let alone alive.

Running within two hours of eating a big pizza is not to be recommended though.

Secondly, I’m approaching the end of my first Spanish course. It’s doubtful that I’ll be able to make it to the next course, because I’d miss at least 40% of the lessons, what with all the traveling we have coming up. So I need to make an attempt to keep learning by other means, until the next rotation comes around.

Fortunately, there are lots of online tools to help. The BBC seems to have some free stuff I can play with, I have babbel, a free app, on my phone, and so if I can grind out ten minutes every morning between waking up and clambering into the shower, I shouldn’t arrive at the start of the next course feeling too monolingual.

Thirdly, I haven’t written enough this year. In a bout of insomnia-inspired creativity, I wrote out the remaining plot of my horror novel, but then I’ve failed to do anything with that. Again, a bit here, a bit there, until I have something, no matter how rickety, to rework. If you don’t have a first draft, you have nothing to redraft. I’ve got my time-travel/surveillance story to put together too. Same deal there. Little by little, bit by bit.

So that’s three things. In addition, to make sure I’ve got enough time and energy for these things, I’m going to only drink on Saturday nights, and I’m going to do my level best to get a proper amount of sleep every night. That means going to bed early, same as my baby, and not staying up half the night hunting for an ever-receding possibility of hope on Twitter/Facebook/every other dire distraction that the internet can put before me. Three things; three months. How hard can it be?


3 responses to “Resolutions for the rest of 2013”

  1. How would we live without internet distractions?

    “Remember in ancient times email (incredibly) considered exciting and fun, but now email is evil foe.” Lionel Shriver.

    • Did we ever think email was exciting? Or am I too jaded to remember such halcyon days?

      There was a good letter in the LRB the other week (not sure if you saw it) pointing out that not only have smartphones been identified as the Certain Doom Of Civilisation, but so was television, newspapers and mass-produced novels. From which I conclude technology isn’t the problem, people are the problem.

      Hang on, that sounds worryingly apocalyptic…

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